help me hold on to you

But dry heaving sucks, and Adam feels tears spring in eyes out of synch with the jumping of the muscles in his lower back. It doesn’t stop, not even when Ronan appears, one hand smoothing Adam’s hair back from his forehead, the other rubbing circles on his back.Fuck. Adam had been trying to not wake Ronan up. He’s been worrying so much.“Ugh,” Adam gets out, when it’s over. He goes to stand, and Ronan’s hands ease the process, make sure Adam is steady on his own feet. He’s not. Ronan’s hand remains tight around Adam’s waist, helping Adam stay upright as he swishes some water around his mouth and spits. Adam doesn’t protest Ronan all but carrying Adam back to bed.“This appointment is gonna be a shitshow,” Adam mumbles. “I haven’t, like, slept all week.”“It’s gonna be okay,” Ronan says. “Maybe it’s not as bad as we think.”(title from The Archer by Taylor Swift)