All We Are

He couldn’t remember exactly how it had started. Or why. It wasn’t that he disliked the way his body looked. He wasn’t even trying to lose weight. In fact, when it started, his weight wasn’t something he thought about very much.Pavel suspected it had something to do with the fact that he was often very, very lonely, despite constantly being surrounded by people. He was also quite sad. But the biggest piece was probably his anxiety. It pounded through his head and he was left with a persistent feeling that he needed to get out, that he wasn’t safe in his own skin, because everyone was looking at him and saying bad things about him and he was taking up too much room and air and time and food and hey, some of those things he could change.