a choiceless hope in grief

It didn’t matter. Aziraphale was going to find Crowley even if all the supernatural forces in existence decided to go against him.One might ask why. Why? Because the few months of happiness they had together had given him far more meaning than the thousands of years that came before. Because trying to picture spending the rest of his existence without Crowley in it hurt so much it was almost physical. Because Crowley would have done the same for him, in a heartbeat, without the slightest moment of hesitation. Because he had failed him too many times before and refused to do it again.Because Aziraphale loved Crowley more deeply than he himself could fathom at times and still believed that despite everything, in the end, love truly did conquer all.