Seasons of Change

OK SOI HAVE MORE TIME TO WRITE AND POST NOWbut it's only because british schools close indefinately tomorrow, with all GCSEs cancelled, and I've been in self-isolation with my family for the past week or so.this means that, yes, i should still study, but i've arranged for it to only be practise questions, reading textbooks that i got before the uk went into lockdown that will help with my A Levels, and finishing my art and imedia coursework, which won't take long at all. this gives me much more freetime, meaning i can dedicate more of it to writing my trash for the few people who still read it!however, it will be less frequent than it has been previouslyi'm gaining a large following on instagram now that i've figured out the tagging system and whatnot, meaning i want to start dedicating more time to my art. this, of course, means less time for writing. and on top of that, i'd still like to spend time playing games and talking to my friends as we globally try to get through the pandemic. i need to know if they're safe, and playing games will ease my mind from it. writing, however, won't, knowing me, because a lot of my creativity stems from my emotions and thoughts on the world at that moment in time.this is another reason why i haven't been updating, as i've just come out of my second two weeks of mocks, which have piled on the stress even further. i've been trying to balance my mental health for a long time with everything else, and in the past 6 months it's not been working. i needed to try and find my way again before writing, because i don't want to take my stories in the wrong direction just because i had an off-day. art isn't effected in this way, and i usually need to listen to music to influence it, which is why my instagram has been growing as i try to upload art there to keep my followers happy. i've met a lot of people there who i'd like to befriend one day, but, since my awkward ass always somehow screws relationships up, i want to do this through my posts there.at this point, i'm just rambling, so i'll leave it off here. stay safe, hydrated, don't touch your face, and wash your hands. everything is shit, but it will get better <3 [also, SPOILERS FOR SJaT]