the moments in between

"Chuuya at eighteen has long hair which he often ties back into a ponytail. Dazai can see the nape of his neck, the tendons in his skin, and when Chuuya is sitting down, leaning over a book or lying face first on the touch, Dazai will have to resist the urge to touch him there, the follow the veins down to the bumps in his spine and to figure out, how, exactly, Chuuya is built: where the flesh of him ends and the human begins. It is more than that though, but Dazai refuses to look at it, so he cuts it off: snips through the emotion just as easily as he snips through Chuuya’s hair, standing over him while he’s asleep with a pair of kitchen scissors because he cannot bear to see that swath of pale skin anymore." Chuuya uses Corruption: once, twice, when he's sixteen and eighteen and twenty one, twenty two.Dazai is there. Dazai is always there.