to die will be an awfully big adventure

As the sun seeped through the curtains of his room, the first thought Tommy had the morning he turned seventeen was that he would never be good enough. This realisation wasn't new to Tommy, not when his best friends Tubbo and Ranboo are two overachievers and hard workers. Not when his brothers, Wilbur and Techno, have more talent and passion in their pinkie than he has in his entire body. Tommy had accepted he would never be as good as his brothers years ago - but he had hoped that if he manages to get by, keep his head just above the water, then he will be fine. It has finally sunk in that Tommy does not know if he can survive like this for another year.-(Seventeen is a weird age for everyone, Tommy was not an anomaly. Except, when he curls in a little bit tighter, feels a little more lonely and empty, he wonders if it really is worth it to hold on for longer. A coming-of-age self-indulgent fic where one struggles with growing up, school, friends, family and life)