I Always Thought I Might Be Bad (now i’m sure that it’s true)

Katsuki is fourteen years old and so what if some stupid villain attacked him, he still fought him off. He’s still a strong independent alpha whether or not shitty Deku got in the way. That’s what all the heroes said, after all.  Katsuki is fifteen and fuck how could anyone ever want him when he’s the monster who ended All Might? How could anyone want someone so weak that they get kidnapped by some shitty extras? How could anyone even dare look at him when he smells more like burnt sugar than caramel? How could anyone ever come near him let alone want him when all he does is ruin everything? How could anyone want him when fucking Deku of all people is the strong one now, the successor, the chosen one? When he spent his entire life looking ahead just to not realize he was being passed up? —Katsuki's progression through the years of how he sees himself as an alpha. With of course some bakudeku and pack dynamics.