and my words shoot to

She’d hidden her hurt from El; pulled the girl into her embrace, held her as tightly as possible and hugged her to her to confirm she was real, and alive before her. But inside she held the initial shock and betrayal she’d felt at seeing her alive, centered entirely on Hopper.

For all his call me first and things will get better talk, he’d been keeping this huge secret from her, and she’s hurt. She’s an open book with him, spilling every feeling she has without thought, and here he was hiding the fact that the girl that she’d thought had sacrificed herself for Will was actually alive.