For your I would ruin myself a million little times

after the prank, Sirius loses his friends his boyfriend and falls apart, stop eating, starts cutting again to punish himself. until hes finally had enough of living. he needed some kind of comfort.Standing up vision blurring he slowly walked across the room to Remus's bed, there was a sweater he’d taken off from the other day on top of the sheets, it was Sirius's favorite. He grabbed it and made his way back to his own bed once again, laying down and curling around the sweater. It smelled like Remus, chocolate, coffee and book pages. A wave of relief washed over him.And then he threw up.