and it feels good to be

When he looks at her like that she can almost understand why George would lie to him, in favour of keeping the balance of everything the same. Even if it’s for just a little bit longer. She remembers something George said to her, in the beginning, at the start of the job that led them into the wild descent of where they are now. You have to say no to him. Or you’ll make him worse. It feels unfair to think that maybe this is just another thing that George said no to. Another distraction, the thing that shakes him off of the even path.She can’t make sense of the way that they are around each other. The two boys together and where that leaves her. Where she fits into the routines and the inside jokes and the way the two of them look at each other, that they think she doesn’t notice.Or Lucy and George kiss, and together the three of them have to figure out what they want.