And Im five years ago

“You know, I spent a year mourning you,” John says and finally looks up at Sherlock. “A whole year; might have been more if not for Mary. Hell, I could be still up there locked in my room right now if not for Mary.” He sits up in his chair, leaning toward Sherlock with every word. “I was a fucking ghost. I walked around this city and didn’t see a bloody thing but a giant hole where you used to be.”

Sherlock returns after three years to a less then pleased John who is now engaged to Mary Morstan. Sherlock and John and Mary figure out how they all connect now, who loves who and where this leaves them with Sherlock back from the dead to face all the pain he caused.