tell you hear you

“Hey, are you okay?”Mari bit her lip, trying to find the right words. She didn’t want to explain everything right now; it was too much. She wasn’t sure she had the words. Maybe she never would. Instead, she took a deep breath and said, “I’m not ready for anything more, Lot.”Lottie’s expression softened, and she cupped Mari’s cheek gently. “That’s totally fine, Mar. I’m sorry if I pushed too far.”Mari quickly shook her head. “You didn’t. I just... I’m not there yet.”The ‘I’m not sure I ever will be’ goes unsaid once again.-or, three times Mari tries to tell her partners she's asexual and one time she succeeds.