reaching for the past

Eddie breaks into a run and barrels past Chim and his increasing protests until he reaches Hen, kneeling on the ground next to someone in a C-collar, partially blocking them, but Eddie knows those pants. He knows those shoes.Hen stands and backs up in the way Eddie has seen her do a dozen times when she can’t help a patient anymore, when there’s no hope or help for them anymore. When all she has to do is wait for death to strike before she can move on.Eddie’s gut is swept out from under him, falling as far as the seventh floor loft he knows so well, with Buck’s bloodied face on the ground before him.—There are a few certain things in this life. Things Eddie can count on to always be true. Eddie’s in love with Buck. Eddie watched Buck die and brought him back to life. And that he can’t figure out how to keep going from there with the constant nightmares.