i saw you in golden light

Baz lies awake at night and the cold is unshakable. He’s layered with blankets, but he’s still cold. Too cold. He wishes he was warmer, he wishes he was whole, he wishes he had a soul.He just wants a soulmate, he tells the universe quietly on these nights. He doesn’t care who. He’s not picky. He just wants a soulmate, he begs the universe silently — someone to remind him he might not be totally heartless after all.Baz remembers the nights he spent when he was younger, asking the universe for a soulmate. The exercise feels foolish now. He would rather have no soulmate at all than this curse — Simon Snow for a soulmate, the straight Simon Snow, who would never love him, as a soulmate…This soul bond is clearly unrequited. It’s rare but not altogether unheard of — sometimes soul bonds aren’t reciprocated. It’s just Baz’s luck that he’s happened to get saddled with the Chosen One. The golden god of a Chosen One.