dying lonesome in the dark (begging for you)

With weak knees, Felix tries to get to his bed but his muscles fail him and he ends up clambering along the wall for support. He growls and lets his back slide down the wall, too tired to make a second attempt. Gently, he leans his head back until it hits the wall and he closes his eyes.

I’m in love with him, then? Felix thinks. Is that what all that has been?

***

Felix has done all he can to pluck out the persistent and dangerous feelings he's harbored for Sylvain since they were children, but the saints have other plans as Felix starts coughing up flowers that will lead him to an early grave. Certain he has no hope of recovery, Felix hides his condition from the others as best he can.