Give me hope in silence (it's easier, it's kinder)

When Tim and Jon have to share quarters in the last night of their life, allegedly, Tim looks over to Jon sleeping a dreamless sleep, and he swears he doesn't care. He doesn't care when he tosses and turns, and looks at him from the other bed a million light years away from his.Tim swears he hates, when he goes over to his bed and they end up wrapped around each other. He hates when Jon kisses him with the desperation to keep him alive.Things were more complicated than that, of course, but who cared for technicalities? They were going to die.