Live Happy, Die Happier

"'Sometimes when you sleep, you look like you’re dead,' Atsushi says, 'and the first few nights we spent together I had to listen to your breathing so closely. Sometimes I’d pull away from you entirely so I could watch your chest rise and fall.' He sighs and sweeps his bangs back with his left hand, the other hand is laying so close to Dazai that they almost touch. 'You always look so peaceful and I’m scared that’s how you’ll look when you die.'"After a night of drinking with the Agency, Atsushi can't stop thinking about something Dazai said while drunk. It keeps him up at night until he eventually bursts and confesses everything to his sleeping boyfriend.