how do I forgive myself

c! Wilbur raising c!Tommy, told in a series of memories------------------------------------------------“Wil! Wilbur! Wilbs!” The tiny kid barrels down the hill, running towards Wilbur, who's stretched under the large oak tree.Wilbur loves this tree. It's peaceful and tranquil. He likes the quiet beauty it emits.It also gives him a good view of Tommy when he’s playing in the field and hill, like right now.The kid was just laying on his stomach, when he suddenly sprang up and started running towards Wilbur.He doesn't seem to be in danger, so Wilbur just grins at the sight of his little brother pumping his tiny legs as fast as he can, smiling as radiant as the sun.His blonde curls flop over his face, (he needs a haircut soon) as he runs, arms pinwheeling to keep his balance.Wilbur laughs, and gets up, not bothering to mark his page. He walks toward Tommy and scoops the kid up before he has the chance to collide with his legs.He can walk and run, sure, but he hasn’t quite got the hang of it yet.Tommy screeches as he's picked up and Wilbur laughs, hugging him close to his chest. Tommy curls closer, and Wilbur melts. The kid is really the sweetest.